My life isn’t what I want it to be right now. I get frustrated some days because I live with my parents, and have been struggling to accomplish my goals in this life – like finishing this book. I have to remind myself that most people are in this same situation.
People have been asking me what my goal is with using the standing frame. I don’t know what the “goal” is, it just seems like a step in the right direction. It’s not been an easy step. It’s been really hard. As a matter of fact it’s been the most painful and mentally challenging things I’ve ever done. Painful to the point that more than once I’ve thought that I might black out because my body didn’t want to do what I wanted. People have asked what the benefits to this kind of training are. If you asked me if getting up in the standing frame twice a week was something I wanted to do, the answer would be, “no”.
But there are some things that we do because it makes us a better person. I’ve taken a lot of physical pain during this training. It may make me mentally stronger, it may make me physically stronger, but either way it will make me stronger, and that is worth the pain.
A lot of people in this day in age get hung up on their struggles. They look at their own situation and say, “Look at how tough MY life is!” They are willing to tell anyone who will listen about their personal struggles. Someone is always complaining about their childhood or their bad day from last week or how their cat threw up on the carpet this morning, which ruined their whole day, etc etc.. We all have stuff that’s happened. There’s nothing wrong with sharing your personal stories with others. Personal stories help to connect us and open us up to others emotionally, but the people that are constantly complaining about woes on a day to day basis need to re-evaluate what is happening in the life around them and either make some positive changes or look at things in a different way, so that the positive can be found no matter what the situation.
So when I’m in that standing frame suffering pain just from standing that most people would feel after running 10 miles or so, I get pissed off upset too.
My physical therapist says I am much harder on myself than he is on me. He deals with a lot of people who come in complaining of pain and if they have to endure pain to make the pain better, he says most people aren’t willing to do that. Most people aren’t willing to deal with pain management or soreness to self-improve.
I didn’t get to the point I wanted to get to in the standing frame this week. I was still too sore to sleep last night because of my efforts, but I wanted more success still.
There are a lot of people willing to complain, but are they willing to make the changes and do what they need to do in order to make their lives better?
The standing frame is not going to allow me to get a job or magically allow me to become more independent, but it is something I can do to make my life better. I feel that if I do this, there are other doors that will open if I take the initiative. This is something available to me and within my power that I can do as I wait for those opportunities to open up. I have no clue what those opportunities are and I still spend too much time on a daily basis worrying about where I need to be, but I can’t just dwell on that. I have to be doing something to improve myself.
Update
Most of this was written a couple years ago and I still feel the same way. If you are not happy with the direction of your life, then you have to do something to change it. I’m not saying quit your job, or leave your spouse. I’m saying that every small step in the direction that you want to go gets you closer to your desired destination. I’m not ashamed to admit that there is a donate button on this blog. It’s there because I’d like to be able to pay Evie what she’s worth, as well as get myself in a better financial situation.
I don’t expect, millions of dollars. The donate button is really an illustration of what I’m talking about here. I’d like to get paid for motivating and entertaining you, so I’ve put up a donate button. It’s a small step but it gets me closer to what I want. I’ve also decided that I want to speak more often professionally. To help with that process, I’ve started working on getting an agent. Again, it’s a small step toward getting me closer to my ultimate goal. Are you ready to take a step?
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